The Williams Family

I love Diet Coke. It's an illness really.

2010-03-05T07:54:00.000-08:00

I remember a day in the shower, somewhere during the 6th week post delivery, where I was seriously about to fall asleep while washing my hair. I may even have washed it twice since I'm pretty sure it had been about 4 days since destinkifying myself. During said snooze session, I contemplated all the ways I could make it through the day without falling alseep. Since I was breastfeeding I knew loading up on caffeine was not the answer. So...I'd let my psyche take over. I'd drink caffeine free diet coke and let the placebo effect do it's thaaang. I'd make myself believe I was full of energy thanks to that carmely fizzy drink supplied out of that beautiful 12oz aluminum can. In fact, I'd drink 5 if it would help matters. Then I thought...what about the aspartame?

Crap.

Ok...moving on to conditioner. Wait, did I do that part already? Right..ok, shave. Wowsers...seriously? Well, somewhere in the world hairy legs are sexy right?

So we're at almost 12 weeks old and now that I'm only breastfeeding at night, diet coke is my new found love of my life in the mornings. Coffee for me requires about 7 little tubs of french vanilla creamer per 16oz cup and I guess I'd rather eat my calories in cream cheese than in my coffee. So, diet coke it is. It's actually like a snack for me. Some people make popcorn around 3pm in the office, I crack open my best friend D.C. Sometimes I call on her sister who happens to be a Dr.. Her name is Pepper.

I should note, however, Bella has been sleeping anywhere from 7 to 9 hours in a row every night since Valentines day. Perhaps Cupid shot her with a sleeping arrow for mommy? Either way...I feel like a new woman. Having a Grandma stay with you for a month and offer to get up with her in the event she does...definitely helps with sleeping soundly. I just have to remember that come March 21st...it's back on me. I mean us!!! That's right...now that I'm back at work, Dave gets to help with the responsibility! Let's just hope she continue's this glorious routine far after our temporary live in nanny heads back home.

I realized my last post was 10/5, far before the baby was born. So...I've attached some pics for your viewing pleasure. Enjoy!

PACKERS VS. VIKINGS

2009-10-05T16:10:00.000-07:00

Well, tonights the night folks. Brett Favre plays the one team he's never beat...the Packers. I believe all of WI, Minnesota and parts of our surrounding states will be glued to the t.v. in anticipation of what will happen. In the meantime, I've had to upgrade from my childrens large size jersey to a Packer maternity shirt. Take a looksy! I also added in a barebelly pic for fun. The jersey pic is frmo 23 weeks, the bare belly is from 24 weeks and the packer t-shirt is from tonight, 25w2d.

2009-09-29T13:28:00.001-07:00

I just realized I never posted our ultrasound pic!

2009-09-29T13:13:00.000-07:00

Since reports are taking forever to come back to me at work, I'm taking this time to update my blog.

I have a Dr. 's appointment tomorrow at 4:45 where I'll get to hear the baby's heartbeat again and hopefully get some more info on the classes we should be taking to prepare for...(gulp)....birth. I've already informed my Dr. that I have examined my nether regions and I am absolutely convinced that God made me too small to push a baby out of my body. I just don't see any way around a c-section because there's just no way a head, shoulders, followed by hips and legs and feet are going to make their way through my holy passage. (haha...holy...ahahahah)

At any rate, he assures me that my body will know what to do and will "stretch and open" to accomodate my little watermelon. We'll see. One thing is for sure, if an epidural is available, it's first on my list of to do's directly following changing from street clothes into that nifty gown they give you at the hospital. HOT mama I can't wait.

The baby is kicking a lot now...although I'm not sure it's really kicking, it's more like summercaults. I'm pretty sure he/she will be a gymnyst. Dave insists if it's a boy he's just practicing his football skills, but I took dance for 9 years...I'm pretty sure I know what I'm talking about.

At any rate, my reports still aren't back and I have 1 hour and 5 minutes left until I get to scadadde for the day. I think I'll spend at least the next 6 minutes on the look out for a good snack...and the following 3 seconds scarfing it down.

2009-09-09T12:50:00.001-07:00

Here are some nursery room pics! The saying on the wall is French for "Our Gift from God" The bag is my new Petunia Pickle Bottom Diaper bag that I just got for my birthday!

2009-08-19T12:48:00.000-07:00

I think….I think I may have felt the baby move! I’m really waiting for that moment with finite evidence where my whole world stops, tears swell up in my eyes and I know, without a shadow of a doubt..that my little one has kicked me for the first time (that I could feel anyway.) But…I’m told it takes a while to feel all that, so for now I’ll just take every little flutter and wait for my baby to really make itself known.

In the meantime, my every two week heartbeat appointments will suffice. Today, in fact, is hopefully my last one before I can feel the baby move. Two weeks from tomorrow, on my birthday, we go for THE ultrasound! IF we were going to find out the gender then this would be a really cool day to find out…but we’re going to wait until the baby’s BIRTHday! Dave used to be on board with me, but he’s grown to not be able to stand the idea of a stranger knowing what we’re having and us not knowing. To be honest, it kills me too…but it is what it is. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through this whole process it’s that we cannot plan anything…so why not wait another 5 months to find out??? I hear it’s really cool to find out either way, I guess we’re just choosing to find out later.

I’m also learning to NEVER, and I mean NEVER, tell a woman how huge she looks pregnant. I’ve been told a few times now how big I look for having my first…yet I still weigh 4 lb’s LESS than I did prepregnancy! A coworker even told me that she thought it was beautiful to be big…which, it is…but not when you’re only 5 months preggo and they’re like ‘YOU’RE HUGE’.

Bless her little 5’1” 102 lb soul…

2009-08-11T13:29:00.000-07:00

Here's a question....when I say "I'll call you back when I find something out." Why..oh why...do people feel the need to call you 30 minutes later and say "just calling to see if you found anything out..."

Um...have I called you back yet? No. Grrrrrr. So annoying.

Anyway...hoping to get the trim up around the closet doors in the nursery and the front closet tonight. I have no idea what to make for dinner and what chores to do around the house...but what I do know is that it will all go by too fast and before you know it, the alarm clock will sound...I'll roll over, and once again 6:45 will be staring me in the face. blah. I mean, I like routine...but if only my routine consisted of getting up at 10 a.m., then shopping all day...coming home to my favorite meal from the Chancery and a glass of zinny (post baby)...then I'd be all for it. When it consists of sitting in traffic on Delany Road trying to turn onto hwy 41...I'd rather stick my head in a bucket of nair. Not really...but you get you get the point.

2009-08-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

So......it's been a while, I know, I know...
Cutting to the chase....I'm 17 weeks and 2 days pregnant! Seeing as this is our first, we're on the ball with getting ready for baby. Here are some pics of our nursery. Please excuse the tools sitting on the floor. Dave installed the closet door and we now have to put in the trim. But..here's our crib, changing station, and glider! Also...my 17 week belly pic! Oh, plus....Dave and I went to meet the Miller High Life guy at the local grocery store and got autographs. Trust me, being in the frozen food section with a beer guy when you can't even drink beer...is WAY better than being at work on a Friday morning!

My period is not my friend

2009-04-15T12:51:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I'm beginnig to think that the uterus actually has arms with little mini boxing gloves which are completely undetectable by any technological device known to man....because it's trying to punch it's way out...of....my....body....

You know you've lost it when you trick yourself into believing that as long as you hold your breathe, the cramps will stop. So, basically...you're still in pain and your face is blue. Then you have to explain to your co-worker that you just have cramps...after they try giving you the heimlich maneuver because they're convinced you're choking on your lunch. But...I'm not saying I'm speaking from experience or anything...anyway....

One other lil tidbit to consider.... Name brand or generic? Now...when it comes to certain medicines or perhaps a window cleaner...I always get generic. It's cheaper. However, I will speak from personal experience in saying do not buy generic maxi pads. That is, of course, unless you want an origami shaped pad about to fall out of your panties. Oh yeah, it'll ball right up into an origami swan and then fall out of your pants onto the floor as you walk by the end of the day. Adhesive wings? Really? Because they worked about as well as trying to get a piece of paper to stick to the wall with oil. It just didn't happen.

OH...and the emotions! Over what you might ask? Um...I have no freakin clue!!!!! Why don't you ask my friends Estrogen, Testosterone and Progesterone. We're BFF'S apparently :) Yay.

Based on all of this...here's my last question. Why...why..why...why...after 6 years of being with my husband has he not learned yet that for this one week....one week!...just please please please PRETEND I'M RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING!!! I don't like liars, but please, please, please just lie to me for this one week. "no babe, you don't look bloated"..."yes Honey, I'd LOVE to do the dishes after I cook dinner!" and "yep, I remember you telling me that cause I was TOTALLY paying attention when you were yelling at me the other day." I mean, is it that hard???

I have to say though....my hubby takes the cake. He loves me, puts up with me, and tretches through everything with me. I wouldn't trade that non-liar for anything. :)

Sheeeeee's heeeeeeere

2009-04-14T13:22:00.000-07:00

Last night around 8:30 I felt a slight thumping in my uterus. Abut 9ish it turned into, oh, how shall I say it....a STABBING/PUNCHING feeling. I went to the bathroom and sure enough, aunt flow is here for the week. It's good though, she needs to visit so I can start my next cycle, but it's always funny to me how easy it is to forget the pain that comes along with her. Today I'm experiencing mild yet excrutitating pain in my lower back, a sort of tug of war with my uterus and the floor beneath me...and overall waterfall works in my eyes with the slightest change in emotion. Oh, and keeping my eyes open is like holding your arms out to the side for hours on end...practically impossible.

I wonder if anyone would notice if I went out to my car and slept until 4:30????

Probably. Crap.

The Longest Fall Ever

2009-04-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

This past Saturday night, my girlfriend and I were on our way to the Bucks game when we stopped for a red bull. Well, on our way out, I stepped in a pot hole and began my journey to the ground. It was seriously the longest fall I've ever had in my life. It start out with a wobble to the right and then a slight jerk to the front. I thought to myself "just stand up." Well, I couldn't, so I start to go down further, now my top half is moving more forward so I'm getting quite top heavy. I get to the point where I'm thinking "I can't believe I can't just stand up, what is wrong with me." So, I finally go down, smack my knee into the ground, somehow scrape up the top part of my hands and all I can think about is how my shirt came up and my belly is showing.

G.R.E.A.T.

My girlfriend is silent for about 5 seconds to which I just know she's laughing hysterically but she finally musters up the courage to ask if I'm ok. The two guys from the gas station come out to see if I'm ok and probably making sure I'm not going to sue them. So, we get in the car and I can hardly press the pedal becuase my knee is throbbing. We get to the game only to realize we parked on the wrong side. Our tickets were at will call on the other end of the arena. So, we start walking. OMG...my knee is killing me. We get in, start watching the game...all is well. Until....we go to get some food. I get a hot dog, slather on the kethcup and mustard and then what happens? It rolls off the counter onto the floor! Are you flippin kidding me? Luckily my friend got me a new one, they gave it to us for free which was so nice of them. We get back to our seats, and as I sit down, I bang the bad knee into the seat in front of me. OMG...I need to go home right now...clearly this night is not meant for me to enjoy!

I got home, looked at my knee and there was actually an indentation on the top of my knee cap. Well, today it's red, black, blue and purple and now my ankle hurts. Um...WTF?

Easter

2009-04-12T13:37:00.001-07:00

Today we got up at 7 a.m., went to 8:15 Easter Mass and then hit up the local Walgreens where we, and every other last minute person scurried for easter cards and gifts. My brother got my mom a pink bunny that sang "yes, Jesus loves me", and Dave and I got my mom some peanut brittle and my step-dad starbucks coffee. Yeah, we're great gift givers. :)

Here are some photos of our day!

2009-04-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

Waiting for your period is like waiting for pain while getting a cavity filled. You know it's coming, and it's gonna hurt. This is especially true when it's been confirmed through bloodwork that you're not pregnant and to "call on the first day of your full flow." What the hell is full flow anyway? Do I have to have stains on my pants cause the tampon hasn't caught it all? Oh...and as for tampons...what are they effing talking about on those stupid tampax commercials where the girl is swinging about in a dress...like "oh, this solid cotton thing with a string feels so good in my crotch. Right.

On the other hand, we have the infamous "maxi pad"....um, does anyone else waddle when you walk due to the bulk of pad always making it way to the back of your panties??? And those "wings" they have, not sure about anyone else, but they NEVER stay attached to the under part of my panties. Ever. I'm not sure what the physical difference in the length of my crotch from standing up to sitting down is, but it must be huge cause standing up with a pad on fits, but then after sitting, it somehow relocates itself and says "hmmm...maybe she'll bleed from her butt instead...let's go hang out there for a bit." Hello?!?!?!?! You have sticky tape on you...stay in place! How I get blood on the part of my underwear where my pubic bone is...I'll never know.

OH, and why is it that if my husband happens to walk down the hallway while I'm wiping he cringes, yet he thinks it's ok to pull down his pants, bend over and talk to me from his butt?

Seriously.

Two Week Wait

2009-01-22T07:56:00.000-08:00

I think I'm almost more calm waiting for Ovulation day...the 2 ww is just pure torture. I had an IUI done yesterday morning at 9:45 a.m....exactly 36 hours after I took an HCG trigger to induce ovulation. My follie size on Monday was 19.5, so by Tuesday is should have been 21.5, and probably 23.5 by the time I ovulated. I'm told this is good and the ultrasound tech said it went well with the lining of my uterus. It's all very complicated but I trust my nurses as they are awesome, and now we wait. Dave had 5x the amount needed to do the procedure which he of course feels like quite the man!

I haven't posted on this blog in a while but I'll make it a point to try and do it more often...especially if I am pg after this...I'll document every day for you all!

Thanks for reading!

Jess

Rubella

2008-11-07T14:42:00.000-08:00

So...it's 11/7 and I'm starting clomid tonight in the hopes of having an IUI done this cycle. However, we're waiting to see if I am immune to Rubella first. If not, then I will get a booster shot and put off trying to concieve until December. If I am immune, then I will begin ultrasounds and bloodwork next friday to determine if I have any mature eggs to trigger the following week.

I never thought in a million years that my "undetermined" test result for being a immune or not immune to Rubella would stand in my way. Oh well, in God's hands...always has, always will.

Ah-ha moment!

2008-08-12T11:12:00.000-07:00

So, in the morning when I brush my teeth, I often think about what I’ll eat for breakfast once I get to work. Today it dawned on me that for the past week or so I haven’t been craving any food or really been starving for that matter. Then it hit me that aside from my meals, I haven’t been snacking at all…not by choice…just by nature. So then I realized that ever since I up’d my metformin to 1000mg, I haven’t been as hungry! The Dr. had told me back in November that the metformin may help me lose weight since it suppresses your appetite but it just hit me this morning that that’s the reason. So, I of course got out my trusty scale and low and behold, I’ve lost 3.8 lb’s since last week! Go me!

TGIPD!!!!!!

2008-08-08T12:59:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD IT'S PAY DAY!!!!!!!!

Phew...

So, it's Friday...I was off of work yesterday so of course getting back to my desk you would have thought I had a fan club with all the e-mails waiting for me! Except for, instead of fans, they're people wanting to know where a report is, or just to yell at me cause they know they are the real one to blame but decide to take it out on me. I'm someone who will ALWAYS admit when I'm at fault. Why try to remember all the lies when you can tell the truth and be done with it? I've found that most people stop yelling once you're at the point of saying "you're right...I was wrong...what can I do to fix it?"

Riddle for the day: A man stands looking at a picture of another man and says 'brothers and sisters I have none, but that man's father is my father's son.' Who's in the picture?

Leave me your guesses on our community board on babycenter if you're dying to know the answer! I had to explain it to a guy at work for like 25 minutes today at lunch. I mean, I feel like I didn't even eat at the buffet!

Jazzercise Round 2

2008-08-07T18:20:00.000-07:00

So, my friend and I joined Jazzercise this past Tuesday and we agreed to go tonight. Well...turns out she had a going away party for a co-worker so she wasn't able to make it! Does anyone realize how much it hurts mentally and emotionally to force yourself to go to workout on your own? Oh the anguish! So I get there and it's a new girl...new music, new moves, etc, etc, etc, ouch, ouch, double ouch! I'm pretty sure my legs are still at their facility melted into a muscle puddle. BUT...I feel good! I ate Jimmy John's 2 hours before working out to make sure I didn't get sick and so then I'd be full and wouldn't have to eat before but now I'm pretty sure I'm going to divulge in a bowl of protein plus special k... That's right people, I'm living on the edge! Whew...fat free milk too...watch out now!

I'm typing this in my office at home and the window is open and it's dark out. You know how if the light is on you, then you can't see outside??? Ever wonder who's watching and what they're saying? I'm pretty sure they're saying "she needs to sit up straight, not look so focused, and clean her damn office!"

On that note...I'm going to go curl up with my bowl of cereal, on the couch and resting my numb legs!

About me

2008-08-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

My husband Dave and I met on New Years Eve of 2002. We dated for 2 years before we got engaged and spent next 18 months planning our wedding. The best day of our lives took place on July 1, 2006 and we will never forget our wedding day! In May of 2007, we began trying for a family. After 6 months of trying I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). We were recently put on medication to help the process along. This blog is to share our stories on the journey to becoming parents.